This morning I woke up in paradise. I walked out of the bedroom, passed my son sitting in a hammock smiling at me, to sit down in front of an infinity pool with a beautiful green forest and vast ocean as its backdrop. I sat down in front of the pool which transformed in a moment from absolute stillness to a vibration of ripples dancing across the water. The result of an almost imperceivable breeze moving through the atmosphere. This is my reality. At least part of my external reality. It may be a friend’s house I stayed at last night, but it is only a portion of the beauty and blessings I have the privilege to experience on a daily basis.
I am awed by the diversity that is my reality. My life is a series of contrast and variety, from the beautiful nature and landscapes that surround me here in Costa Rica, to the isolated, reflective moments of silence and the multitude of human interactions I have living in an intentional community. This is my reality. I do twice as much in the course of the average day here in the jungle than I did when I lived in the United States, but I am half as stressed. One year ago, during the MKMMA course I completed, I was renting a room from a friend and, consequently also losing that same friendship through the process of our cohabitation. I was stressed, worried about money, lonely, fifteen pounds heavier, and heading into another stressful and challenging living situation. And I was vulnerable and reflective of the choices, patterns, and habits that led me into those circumstances. I was cultivating self acceptance, compassion, love, and appreciation.
Today, I live in a house in an eco-village in Costa Rica. I walk with my son through the forest and over a creek to his school. I eat health food in the dining space with all of my neighbors and a constantly changing group of visitors. I hug multiple people daily. I am regularly thanked and appreciated for being my true self. I am free and have true health. I am challenged in totally different, new ways. I am constantly rising to the next best version of myself and embracing each aspect of the process. Whether I am in the midst of witnessing my disempowering thought patterns dominate my mind or experiencing the bliss of listening to the sounds of the wildlife expressing itself all around me or dancing around a fire in the moonlight or having yet another epiphany, I am alive and present for all of it. I am grateful for every part. I am confident in my ability to meet each aspect of this life with openness.
And now, I am in the final stages of sharing the philosophies, principles, and concepts I have come to value and implement in my life with others in the form of a book. Writing has always been a passion and a joy in my life. And being a success published author has been a dream. I began writing a book when I was ten about a boy who was stranded in a ravine after a car accident. The story was focused on how he continued to create solutions to survive until he could be rescued. In the meantime, he was constantly rescuing himself from these circumstances he found himself in until the situation changed. Eventually, he realizes that no one knows he is in this chasm and that if he wants to live, he must rescue himself completely. And to rescue himself he must embrace and harmonize with the environment around him. He must focus on developing and strengthening his attention on what benefits the realization of his goal or desire and what distracts from it. Although I am finishing a complete different genre of literature, the story is the same. I am writing a story about how an individual can develop the tools, actions, mindset, and perspective that there is nothing to be rescued from and one already has all the resources required to live a full and thriving life.
A year ago, I was constantly trying to find solutions to get me through tough situations until the rescue party, aka Infinite Intelligence, showed up and brought me to safety. This was my standard operating system. Just keep my head above water and remain ever-optimistic that help is on its way. The challenge with this way of being is you are constantly aware of the danger you are in. Like the boy in my story, I was always focused on a way of getting out of my current circumstance, at least the undesirable ones. Now that non-resistance and self acceptance are a way of life and not just idealistic concepts, I’m no longer keeping one eye on the horizon in search of the rescue crew. I am meeting most moments in life with curiosity and trust. And, most importantly, I am trusting the union between me and the intricate energy of the Universe. I am free to move through life in peace. I am open to seeing every part of myself and allowing it space in my reality. There is no longer a right way, correct answer, or necessary change to hold onto anymore, because it is all existing in perfection. This morning I awoke to a huge reality check. My reality is profound and beautiful. I am ever grateful for the scenery I find along my Heroine’s Journey. Excited to see what the next stop will look like. Hope you are all enjoying the ride, too.
Much Love to you,