I have always been an observant person. I grew up watching the ways the world/people acted and displayed itself/themselves when others were looking. I say world/people because don’t those two things become one in the same over time? The world, as subjective as a topic can be, is only ever a compilation of experiences, perceptions, and our perceptions of our experiences, and our expectations of experiences to come. This is what I spent my lifetime paying attention to through the perceptions, of course, of my own unique soul signature.
Even in the midst of this portrayed reality unfolding before me, I also felt the underlying truth of how things really were pulsing underneath the surface, like veins coursing throughout the body. This underlying energy always seemed more valuable than what was presented. I wanted to know the ways of this foundational energy, the energy under the persona that we don to protect ourselves, our world. I wanted to discover why we kept this energy hidden and learned to project an entirely different character into the world.
I knew how to don the masks and play the game of life, too. I learned fast and jumped right into the game. But did I realize what I was doing or know why I was doing it? Did I know how to live Life as the truest expression of my unique self? To be the energy underneath it all expressing itself to the world. The energy of truth and purity. The reality of vulnerability and compassion. Wasn’t it time? Didn’t I hear a calling to share and show this energy for all to be, see, experience? Was anyone teaching this skill in schools and seminars? What would happen if I dared to be this brave?
But I knew how to play the game. Like I said, I was observant and I learned quickly how my culture wished to experience my presence. Grown up, proper, polite, helpful, interesting, humble, responsible, and intelligent. This is your part. All the qualities one would look for in a job applicant at a local business. I was groomed to be a good worker and contributing member of society. The catch was that underneath the bravado and conditioning pulsed the energy of individuality, self expression, curiosity, wildness, and truth. It vibrated endlessly requesting my attention, appreciation, and acknowledgement. These qualities within were persistent in their desire to be expressed. And I have to say, I was really interested to see how that would go. I’ll admit, I was also terrified.
Nowadays, more and more people are feeling this energy. More are turning their attention to it. More people are abandoning the preparations for a life of working for an external master that does not encourage the fundamental values of self expression, curiosity, individuality, wildness, and truth. More and more people are unveiling the Source of their power. A power which can be used to resign oneself to a life of calculated decisions to insure a future within the present system of hierarchy or applied to the efforts of service, thriving, connection, healthy, fulfillment, wholeness, personal and collective expansion and evolution. And there is no right answer. Both roads lead to the same end, oddly enough.
Regardless of the path your expansion takes, it is unfolding. You may be experiencing healthy issues, financial struggle, confusion about your purpose, discontent, relationship patterns of sabotage and abuse, righteous activist or apathy. You are still on the path of expansion. We are literally in this process together. We are evolving whether we work in a thankless job forty hours a week, hide out in our home collecting disability checks, or travel aimlessly around the world trying to find ourselves. We are on the road on evolution in each and every situation. How present, willing, or resistant we are to the process may color and share our experience of it, but it is happening just the same.
So how do you harmonize with the process and make it less uncomfortable. Well, I have began to regard the impact I have on the environment around me with great care and awareness. I have embraced that at times things can get pretty uncomfortable, but I am willing to stay in the discomfort and receive the gifts that arise from it. Discomfort is often the exact growing experience we require to move to the next level. I have found the more I am willing to be with it and not escape into some habit of distraction, the more profound the insights and lessons can be. I realize it is a gift that we can shift and evolve into more full, authentic, honest, and expansive perspectives in every moment. I feel grateful for this present. (Ha! pardon the pun.)
Now that I have spent the past 38 years observing the world/people or myself in the context of ‘How does all this work?’, I am approaching, with full inclusion and attention being the primary objective, the subject matter of ‘I am part of this work.’ As I am becoming more and more aware of this honor of being in the work of Life, I am actively choose to express the underlying pulse of Energy. I feel so grateful to be living this way as the road to here was quiet challenging, but it strengthened me so profoundly that I was ready to step forward as a result of the initiation process. And I feel so very grateful to be sharing the experience with you.
I look forward to seeing you in the art of living Life.